tis week was the most shag week in my SOCE life.. or rather my morale was just low.. very sick and tired of tat place already... i feel tat my reputation over there is quite bad.. it's jus tis bad feeling.. maybe i'm not satisfied with my own performance or wat.. i dunno... haiz..

represented SOCE for squash and got 3rd for the team event.. dunno whether i'm jus plain lousy or wat.. jus cant perform up to my own standard during a competition.. dun like the pressure ppl give mi when i play.. to me it's jus a game and i wan to enjoy it.. but why are there ppl who are so stubbornly keen on winning tat they will critisize u and play u down instead of giving u encouragement.. i really have doubts over tat person's character.. got extra trophy but ppl nv say give him then he jus took it like he really deserves it lor... fucking idiot. surprisingly it was Shawn (the national player) who gave me all the encouragement and spurred me on... really grateful to him.. anyway that competition was really an eye-opener cos we had a national player in our team and some old SAFSA players who plays a different game compared to the younger players.

1 more week before i leave tis land. pls tell mi how am i going to conquer my fear.

super fucked up.. actually got alot of happy things to blog last week but blogger was down and tis week i'm back with lots and lots of shit... i have jus broken the record of taking 3 confinements and 2 extra duties in a single week..

oso dunno why so suay sia... first day of the new course we exchanged our training passes with a new serial number and i lost it in less than a day! fucking cheebye somemore the places that i might have lost it were jus the bunk, staircases and lecture room nia but still cannot find.. oso dunno y so suay.. need to pay $50 replacement fee plus 3 confinements.

the stupidest thing happened on wed.. it was night's out day and we came back early.. stayed in bunk relac and we forgot to sign the book in/out book until it was almost time for all to come back so we went down to the office topless.. it was all okay in the office lor but we jus stupidly walked to the lift instead of the nearest staircase after signing and got caught by some fucka la.. knn 2 extras leh.. wonder how am i going to finish all tis b4 Cresendo... haiz...

this sums up my whole week.