had my first driving lesson today.. to have the engine stall 3 times after moving off is already quite sucky.. to have ppl behind horning u is even more tulan. i swear it will never happen again.. haha. quite gd tat the instructor let me drive home as part of my practice.. save money. and driving at 70km/h for the first time handling a car is as good as having an orgasm wahahaha

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tis week has been very hectic for me.. monday was the in-processing of the new batch of commanders (all the fuck sergeants) and i'm part of the training cadre for their GCC. first day nia they nearly got killed by us. and it's jus the start of our endless tekan. haha. i made them go into push-up position on the tar road under the hot afternoon sun in front of RSM. no fucking sense of urgency. RSM didnt stop me so meaning tis course shall be our show wahahahaha. i'm a fucking sadist

on 2nd day of their life training as a guardsman, they had a stand-by area conducted by us and got themselves into shit for not being very interested. one of the cadre made them change to FBO with rifle over head for the whole stand-by while i made them change into PT kit and run like idiots arnd the camp. hahaha this is a sadist course compared to mine. any of ur frens jus got posted to Guards as a sergeant? too bad for them la.

wed and thurs Support Company had their ATP. i didnt get my marksman as expected and tis is the only time i experienced less than 2hrs slp in camp before moving off again for the 2nd day of the shoot. shag sia.

GCC 01/06 i was a trainee
GCC 02/06 they have to address me as cadre

New Additions

RockShox Dart3. with turnkey lockout. $270

Cateye Velo 8. cyclometer. $35

Total tis mth: $305. Bike Worth: $1200.
I think i'm spending too much money on tis hobby... time to stop upgarding and save up.

i posted tis before on 2dec 2004. it mean so much right now

wahahahha NDP is finally over!! 1 month of endless shit work tasked to us jus to make the show look good has come to an end. no more funpack, no more SICUS (aka saikang), no more of my OC banging tables to fight for our welfare. (i think HQ alot of tables spoil liao lol).

"so, at the end of the day, wat do u take home frm tis experience?" i asked my soldiers tis question but i dun think anyone of them understand wat i wan to express cos to them it's only saikang and more saikang. To me, i learnt alot from tis event... first of all, as me and ben always puts it, tis is the most practical form of serving the nation rather than training so hard for war and not fighting for real (mayb not). secondly, u get to see the ugly side of Singaporeans.. learning how to swallow shit of fuckers who r unwilling to cooperate. i think i'm still not capable of handling big crowds as compared to ben.. lastly and most imptly, learning how to work under pressure. i see officers who cant work under pressure, cant plan, cant command, cant do fuck shit. might as well go die

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today is a damn crazy day. i dreamt of Toh Chen failing his Ranger course. i can even feel his disappiontment in my dream.. as i'm blogging right now, he called!! i really thought he's going to tell me he failed course but no, he's going to thailand tml for ops phase, closer to getting his tab already.. Congrats!

Jeffrey oso appeared in my dream... another scary one. i saw him wearing khaki beret and telling me he signed on! wtf sign on Guards? i told him, "siao bo?" i oso dunno why i said that but i think i had a disappionting time as a Guardsman ba.. haiz..

den in the noon, Pek from SISPEC called me!! it's surprising as he nvr called me b4 after our time in SISPEC and we only met 2 times by chance.. he invited me to his wedding dinner nxt yr! happy cos he remembered me and i'm 1 of the few of his SISPEC mates to be invited. just bcos we share the same passion of defending tis country. too bad he's no longer serving the force. it's sad to hear someone who told me he wanted to serve for passion being so disappointed with the system... haiz, never sign on ok? passion is really bullshit when u cant control the system. u can only sign on for money. too bad la the society works like tis.

viewing fireworks with someone u love, holding her so close and protecting her from people arnd u..
just to see her smile.

i leaned forward to smell her hair, and the fragrance set my heart racing.. i never had this kind of feeling before...

you made the fireworks even more beautiful.