Sometimes, when you do too well in the beginning, you start setting bigger goals and find yourself in shit when you can't get the same result the next day, the next week, the next month. I am already feeling the pressure in myself. Questioning myself. And I see my shelf of school work and they feel so cold. They have lost the warmth of my hands, feeling so neglected.

I am in control. I must be. No excuses for non-performance.

Nowadays the sites that I go to are only Yahoo mail, Yestuition, Street Directory. This is madness.

Integrity

"We have an employee population that would rank with St. Paul or Tampa if it were an American city. We have no police force, no jails. We must rely on the integrity of our people as our first defense. They only need their conscience as they face the mirror each morning"

-Jack Welch

Straight From the Gut

The Difference

Do you know the difference between winners, people with a winning mindset and losers?

First let me define winners and losers. Winners are people who achieve. They achieve in everything they do, their dreams. Their bucket is always full and they always change a bigger bucket (read: dreams) and fill it full again. It never overflows.

Losers are the opposite. They never understand how things can be done. Let alone a dream. Which is why I need to use the bucket example so that they can at least try to understand (which I don't expect them to anyway).

So, the difference between them is that winners achieve. They aim high and they reach high. They take achievement as a hobby. For example (here i go again), they aim for 100 marks for their exams and work towards it, happily (that is the main purpose of a hobby). Some people achieve at a price. They will tell you how difficult it is to get full marks. These people are not winners.

People with winning mindset understand how winners think. They marvel when winners talk. The reason they may not be achieving is that they are poor. Poor in planning and execution. For these people, they need models. Winning models. Idolise that person and follow his actions. Switch to a better model everytime you achieve.

Losers are people who will laugh when you tell them your hobby is getting good results.

I bet you are laughing now right?

If anyone tell you that mindset can be changed overnight, give him/her the finger and say "fuck you go and die". Mindsets can be changed, but never overnight. It must be nurtured, needs time to kick bad habits and more time to make good, new ones. Identifying that you need to change for the better is the first step to success. We will go into the topic "Change" another time.

I don't know why I am talking about success now like I am already damn successful. Maybe one day in time my blog entries will be highly sought after. Let's wait and see.

I have a dream...

One day I will compile all these into a book and be the next best Singaporean selling author after Mr Khoo. To be a best-selling author I need to achieve big and let the world know. Right now only I know and she knows. I already have the chapters mapped out.

You ask me when is that "one day". Winners don't say one day. They set deadlines. This day... Only I know.

Some days ago, there were a group of good-for-nothing people sitting at the void deck behind my house making a nuisance of themselves speaking in a language which does not belong to mine. Staying on the second floor with open windows for the purpose of proper ventilation, my whole family was kept awake by their laughter.

Being a benevolent human being, I wanted to give them a chance. My mum asked me to call the police to get rid of them. The previous time I called the police for the same reason but they didn't come. So I was rather doubtful of their ability and decided not to waste my phone bill this time.

They tested my patience for one a half hour. Not too bad eh. At 2 am, I finally picked up the phone to ask for the neighbourhood police centre's number. In case you need it, this is the number to dial if you stay in Tampines: 6587 1999.

The funny thing happened. It's the conversation with the policeman over the phone.

Me: I want to make a report, there is a group of people making alot of noise at the void deck behind my house.

Mr Policeman: Can I know which block is that? Malay or Chinese?

EH? How can like that ask one? Got difference meh? Aren't they all useless humans? Play colour ah? Obviously I didn't dare to question him so I told him it's the former. And wait a moment... Don't we normally say "chinese or malay"? Is there any meaning behind it?

I don't know about you.

My aim couldn't be any clearer. I looked at my young cousins and I really regretted... They are really quite hopeless... The clever ones are not interested to study and the rest are quite square...

Talent aside, I just got affirmation from my mum about seeing through my education... I said, "dunno whether we (the family) got enough money to let me finish my education or not."

"You just concentrate on studying. I will take care of the finances no matter what."

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