wahahahha NDP is finally over!! 1 month of endless shit work tasked to us jus to make the show look good has come to an end. no more funpack, no more SICUS (aka saikang), no more of my OC banging tables to fight for our welfare. (i think HQ alot of tables spoil liao lol).

"so, at the end of the day, wat do u take home frm tis experience?" i asked my soldiers tis question but i dun think anyone of them understand wat i wan to express cos to them it's only saikang and more saikang. To me, i learnt alot from tis event... first of all, as me and ben always puts it, tis is the most practical form of serving the nation rather than training so hard for war and not fighting for real (mayb not). secondly, u get to see the ugly side of Singaporeans.. learning how to swallow shit of fuckers who r unwilling to cooperate. i think i'm still not capable of handling big crowds as compared to ben.. lastly and most imptly, learning how to work under pressure. i see officers who cant work under pressure, cant plan, cant command, cant do fuck shit. might as well go die

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today is a damn crazy day. i dreamt of Toh Chen failing his Ranger course. i can even feel his disappiontment in my dream.. as i'm blogging right now, he called!! i really thought he's going to tell me he failed course but no, he's going to thailand tml for ops phase, closer to getting his tab already.. Congrats!

Jeffrey oso appeared in my dream... another scary one. i saw him wearing khaki beret and telling me he signed on! wtf sign on Guards? i told him, "siao bo?" i oso dunno why i said that but i think i had a disappionting time as a Guardsman ba.. haiz..

den in the noon, Pek from SISPEC called me!! it's surprising as he nvr called me b4 after our time in SISPEC and we only met 2 times by chance.. he invited me to his wedding dinner nxt yr! happy cos he remembered me and i'm 1 of the few of his SISPEC mates to be invited. just bcos we share the same passion of defending tis country. too bad he's no longer serving the force. it's sad to hear someone who told me he wanted to serve for passion being so disappointed with the system... haiz, never sign on ok? passion is really bullshit when u cant control the system. u can only sign on for money. too bad la the society works like tis.